Helplessness

If think real hard about it........ then I would say Helplessness is the giving-up reaction, the quitting response that follows from the belief that whatever you do doesn't matter.

The worst part is ....... Helplessness has a twin sister named Dejection!!! You feel left out ...... all alone in a no man's land!!! You tried your best, you gave it your best shot with your best intentions but finally things boomeranged to you. The sun of responsibility is shining with all it's might right on top of you and saying "Gimme a break!!!!" doesn't seem to be an option. You have all your hands stretched out and you are trying to get hold of the situation ....... but one external factor you missed to foresee, and the whole situation boomerangs at you ...... that's when you feel ... helpless and dejected ............. the sheer mountain of frustration kinda crumbles you down to ashes.

You look towards the sky, it's all dull and pale ...... a drop of sweat crawl through your forehead as it gets heavy and heavy with every seconds, which is crawling like a millennium. Your feet feel weak and nimble and it cannot support your body any more and you sit down with a thud on the ground.

You grab yourself and stand up ....... and you look towards the mirror.... but wait a minute!!! Why your eye seems to feel bigger? It's because of the tears rolling down your eyes ...... All of a sudden your intelligence knocks the door of your conscious and says "Hey Dude!!! You're a man and men are not allow to let their tears loose!!!". Your conscious instantly agrees with your intelligence, but your heart ........... your heart is as heavy as the entire universe, it's in a state of trance, and this weight crushes your intelligence and conscious and you have eventually no control over your tears and with those watery eyes you can see the door of solitude!!!

You slowly start walking through that door, not know what's on the other side of the door, or if there's a way back. The sad part is, as you close the door behind you, the key to unlock the door and go back to life, is there with you all the time, but you don't know it because the sense......

The sense of helplessness is so big, that it's overshadowing even the brightest idea you can have ..... and in this solitude, your only companion is time ........ it's your best partner and your best medicine that can bring you back and make you realize that the key is there with you all the time!!!!

And that's exactly what I've learnt!!!!